Woman in Residence

Kay Smith, a local childbirth educator and leader in the NWA birth community sent me this beautiful excerpt. . .

"Here is an excerpt from Dr. Michelle Harrison's book Woman in Residence. She is a family doctor who did residency training in OB/GYN. This book describes her experiences as a resident. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if all OBs adopted this point of view?"

Kay Smith

“Imagine dancers on a stage. Once, doing a pirouette, a woman sustained a cervical fracture as a result of a fall; she is now paralyzed. We try to make the stage safer, to have the dancers better prepared. But can a dancer wear a collar around her neck, just in case she falls? The presence of the collar will inhibit her free motion. We cannot say to her, “This will be entirely natural except for the brace on your neck, just in case.” It cannot be “as if” it is not there, because we know that creative movement and creative expression cannot exist with those constraints. The dancer cannot dance with the brace on.

In the same way, the birthing woman cannot “dance” with a brace on. The straps around her abdomen, the wires coming from her vagina, change her birth.The birthing woman plays in an orchestra of her body, her soul, her baby, her loved ones, her past and her future. And we do not know who leads the orchestra.

Doctors cannot lead the orchestra, because they are not within the process. Unable to hear the music, trained only in modalities of power and control, they can only interfere with the music being played.What should they be able to do? They should stand ready to help the player in trouble to get back into rhythm. Instead, they take over. Instead of supporting the mother, they say, “Okay, you have failed. It’s our piece now.”

How do you get a 30 percent Cesarean rate? You orchestrate it. You write a piece in which the third movement is a Cesarean, then build the first two with that in mind. You write in a different language; you write in terms of centimeters of dilation, external fetal monitor, internal fetal monitor, pH, scalp electrodes, Cesarean birth experience, arrest of labor, protracted labor, fetal distress, episiotomy, prolapse, cephalopelvic disproportion, ultrasound waves, amniocentesis, “premium baby,” post-mature (when the baby stays too long in the uterus), “maternal environment” (formerly known as mother). Those are the words, the notes, while the piece is played to the rhythm of fear."

Here is another excerpt:

“Often I don’t like the women I've delivered. I don’t like them for their submissiveness. When I make rounds in the morning I ask, “When are you going home?” They answer, “I don’t know when my doctor will let me.” They have let themselves be imprisoned. For me, the submissiveness of one woman becomes my own, as though we were all one organism. . . . I used to have fantasies at Doctor’s Hospital about women in a state of revolution. I saw them getting up out of their beds and refusing the knife, refusing to be tied down, refusing to submit—whether they are in childbirth or when they were forty and having a hysterectomy for a uterus no longer considered useful. Women’s health care will not improve until women reject the present system and begin instead to develop less destructive means of creating and maintaining a state of wellness.”